My life consists of work right now with a few outside activities. This is not a bad thing. In fact, I'm enjoying it quite a lot. I do my jobs, and for the most part, I do them well. I am happy and content, which is saying a lot considering I don't think if you asked most people they would say the same. I do question things in my life and wonder where I am going at times, but at the moment I am not worried. A couple of weeks ago, I was. Waking up night after night at three and four in the morning, restless and fearing the future. It is hard for someone like myself, a person with control issues, to let go and let what will happen happen.
I know for a fact the next few months will bring uncertainty, upheaval, and change into my life. I will move to someplace new - I haven't yet decided where. My parents will move to a new place - they haven't yet found out where. In effect, I will be homeless for a while, and that is terrifying, but I know that I am strong enough to handle it. I have the resources and people in my life that will anchor and support me. They will not, however, pave the path for me, but they will encourage and push me in the direction of my choosing. I just hope that I will be strong enough to decide which path is the best for me at the moment, because life is simply a series of moments. (This post is getting cheesier and cheesier.)
A couple of weeks ago someone told me that I need to grow up. I don't think that's entirely true. I don't think that a person can ever truly grow up, because if he does then he stops learning. The best thing is to continue to grow so that you continue to learn. I hope that I continue to grow into the best person I can be.
And now for some updates from the weekend.
- Taught a group of kids and their parents to make a tornado in a jar.
- Saw "Much Ado about Nothing" at the Oxford Shakespeare Festival.
- Went to dinner with a group of friends.
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