And I

And I know I will never be the same. And though it is not their fault, most people will never understand. And even I will never comprehend fully. And then I realize how it changed me.

I will always overpack, because the one time I didn't was the one time I needed to.
I will talk about things differently than others do.
I will split my life into before and after.
I will not remember about four months of time.
I will be one of those people that others talk about and say "why does she keep going back to that."

And I'll know why. And I'll hope that it doesn't hold me back.